He lost his anchor and now I've lost mine

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day

Suicide is claiming nearly 800,000 lives per year and is the 10th leading cause of death in the US. If that isn’t scary enough more than 9.8 million people have seriously considered suicide and is the second leading cause of death among 15-29 year-olds. It affects all races, all age groups and all socioeconomic levels.

If you haven’t lost a loved one to suicide, you probably know someone who has.

I lost my Dad to suicide almost two years ago. The pain of losing someone you love so dear is awful and then add in the mess of emotions knowing suicide was their best option, their only option.

Below is a poem I wrote soon after his suicide… I share this with a tender heart today.

He lost his anchor and now I’ve lost mine


I’ve been blindsided, knocked down and completely crushed.

My dad ended his life.

We couldn’t see the warning signs...

He was strong, quiet and kept his darkness and demons buried down just far enough to manage a life that appeared to be… pleasant.

He was the patriarch of our family, the one who could always provide rational advice. The rock. He was our anchor… but he somehow lost his.

And now I’m left drifting through these tumultuous waters, getting knocked around, pushed and pulled, heading into uncharted territories not knowing how to find my way or how to steady myself…. He lost his anchor and now I’ve lost mine.

How do I sail on? I have to find strength, there must be some buried deep inside.

I’m starting to notice that it’s through these dark times that I’m able to see and appreciate the light. Seeing what I do have, the great loves in my life. And I realize now, more than ever what it’s all about.


It’s easy to lose sight, get lost, and choose to check out because all this living can be so incredibly painful…

But I must show up anyway, messy, hurt, sometimes even feeling very broken… and when the light does come I can embrace it more than ever.

I’m choosing to see it, focus on it and use it as my North Star.

He lost his anchor and now I’ve lost mine…. but I’ve found my North Star.

*If you’re feeling suicidal or know anyone who is call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255

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Too Good Not to Share

As my kids are going back to school this week I’ve been thinking about all that we did this past summer.  It was filled with some amazing trips, visits with dear friends, and lots of fun in the sun. A major highlight was when my girls and I joined my mom and my niece for a trip to the island of Kauai. 

I’m swimming in gratitude as I reminisce about how our three generations came together in such a wondrous place and allowed nature to wash her magical healing powers over us.  Our week was filled with laughter, love and complete joy.

One of our most favorite experiences in Kauai was a tour of the Kauai Farmacy.   When we pulled up we were greeted by Mr Bigs, the most friendly cat. He actually jumped into our car to greet us and this began the love affair with the farm, especially for the girls. We then ventured on back to where they had a beautiful table setup with samples of all their teas for us to try and our tour began. We were taken through a portion of their farm that feels like you’re meandering through an enchanted garden.  Asher, our tour guide, encouraged us to taste everything they’re growing while meticulously explaining the healing properties of each plant. He took us through their kitchen and showed us how they dry their herbs for the tea, and make the tinctures and hydrosols. 

We were able to try almost everything they make and sell, and we loved it all. I can’t say enough about all of their products. You can taste the love, care and healing powers that’s put into everything they do on the farm.  

Since our trip I’ve been savoring each sip of the teas I brought home and soaking up the hydrosols, tinctures and salve.

Because I LOVE it so much I want to share it with you!

I have a special link for 10% off your first purchase.  (Click here for your 10% off)

Our favorite teas are the Immunitea, Women's Wellness and Love Potion, but they are all incredible!

The Comfrey Salve is our new go to for all areas that are sore, bruised, cut etc.  When we were still in Hawaii I got a blister on my foot from a pair of sandals I was wearing.  I put the Comfrey Salve on it that night and the next morning it was mostly gone!

Our time at the Kauai Farmacy was so magical, enlightening and fun that I had to share it with you.  

Even if you can’t plan a tour on the farm, you can still visit Kauai and all its wonder with a sip of their tea or a spray of a hydrosol.  (My girls love the Tulsi Hydrosol because it smells like the farm.)

Thank you Kauai Farmacy.  Our time with you ended up being our favorite experience on the island!


With love and gratitude,

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Favorite Resources

Hello Friends,

I'm excited to let you know that I've added a resource page to my website.  Now I can share some of my most beloved books and resources with you. 

I'm always reading something new to inspire me, support my wellness journey and expand my thinking and perspective.  I love recommending books to my clients and if you've been in for a session I probably have lent a book or two to you.  But, since some of you are unable to make it in the office I thought it'd be fun to share these resources with you too!

You can check out my page at www.trinalee.com/resources/

I'll be updating this page frequently, adding in my latest favorite finds whether it's books, podcasts, or anything else that supports our journey to health, happiness and wellness.

Do you have any favorite books or podcasts that you'd love to share?  

Head over to the blog and leave them in the comments.

Much love and gratitude,

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