Which body would you rather live in? One that is being punished, deprived and hated? Or one that is honored, respected and loved?
I have spent much of my life feeling as though my body isn’t good enough. Always wishing it was stronger, leaner, thinner, and taller. I had a very sad relationship with my body, I was always disappointed in it and felt like I had to control it somehow.
When I was ready for my body to do me the ultimate favor and carry a baby, it couldn’t even seem to do that for me. This only made my relationship with my body even worse. After years of heartache and lots of crazy treatments, my body finally came through and I had my first miracle baby. I think I appreciated my body a little more because of it, but honestly I’m not really sure it changed the hateful relationship I was so accustomed to.
Then breast cancer happened. My body once again was letting me down. I felt so betrayed, heartbroken, disconnected, and completely scared. This was over 6 years ago, and I think it was my rock bottom. I began searching for a better way.
I went to a Hay House event about a year after my bilateral mastectomy, and I was listening to Dr. Wayne Dyer give a talk. He was so magnetic, and I was soaking up all his words… and then he said it… ‘Are you living your life based on fear or love?’
This simple yet profound question just about knocked me off my seat. I began to tear up. I wrote down ‘Fear or Love’. I realized that EVERYTHING I had done to ‘take care of myself’ was based on FEAR!
I was exercising because I was afraid. Afraid if I didn’t I would be fat, my cancer would come back, I wouldn’t be able to keep up with my life, I wouldn’t be good enough, I would be too stressed… and the list goes on and on. Never once did it occur to me to exercise because I wanted to give my body some love and take care of myself better... out of love… nope, not once. I was drinking green juice, eating a vegan based diet, nothing processed, only because I was so scared the cancer would come back if I didn’t. Never did it occur to me to feed my body nutritious food that nourished my body because I loved my body and I wanted to take care of it out of love and respect.
Then I realized this went well beyond how I took care of my body, but my motive for almost all things in my life were based on fear. This shocked me to my core. The toxicity level was huge.
I needed to make the shift to love.
And sure enough, that's when I was introduced to EFT, Tapping.
It's through EFT that I was able to heal my old patterns of hate, disappointment, disgust, resentment, fear, etc towards my body and step into choosing love.
I now choose love.
Am I perfect at it? Absolutely not. It’s a practice.
There's no such thing as being perfect at anything.
If I find myself wishing my thighs are smaller, or my arms are more muscular. I stop… and decide to thank my body instead… after all, my body has been through a lot, and it never gave up on me. Even through all the abuse that I have put it through, it never gave up on me... for that, I'm eternally grateful.
I know this life goes by too fast. I don’t know if I'll be here tomorrow.
So I have decided to thank my body for showing up and doing it’s thing.
I now choose to eat a healthy diet and exercise because I want to support my body and help it do it’s thing. I choose to do it for love. Love for my body and love for my life.
Switching from fear to love has been one of the most radical things I have ever done.
Are you ready to be radical?